Saturday, April 30, 2011
i have known lloyd since 1977 but he was friends with my brothers before that he was one of these very special ppl that had insight into human emotions his nickname when i met him was "the preacher" it wasnt because he was relegious its because he reached ppl when he talked and helped you in some way. i fell for him right off and those beautiful blue eyes that you could hardly see from the shape or the squinting he was georgeous not an ounce of fat on his body all muscle from the hard labor and he was a goof made me laugh still could till the last time i saw him which was 2 years ago i remember it was so hard to stay mad at him. he was my first love i experienced alot of my firsts of everything with him. he was friends with my family all through the years stayed very close to my brothers.he was at my grandmothers and brothers funeral. let me tell you my grandma loved lloyd he was hard hard worker and in her book that was very good thing but it was also cuz he had good manners and respected her i really think she saw this x factor that he posessed he was very special and what you saw is what you got and if you wanted to know the true advice he would give it to you he wouldnt just tell you what you wanted to hear or what made you feel good he would tell it like it was. he was so easy to talk to and i dont know if it was just us til the very last time we spoke we could just talk for hours and hours about everythin or nothin we just never ran out of things to talk about.
he had a HUGE heart. he was one of very few precious special friends and now he is gone.
he did have good manners that were self taught he was on his own at 15 because of total rejection from his father who til the end stil rejected him. that is harry's (father)loss. he was sometimes or maybe alot wild and out of control but it wasnt in bad way it was in fun and harmless. i know when we were together(dating)we had some really wild times my childhood memories have him in most. our start date as a couple was 3-1-1977 that date has always stuck with me.
he was soooo special to me there are few ppl in my life that made me feel safe and protected he was one of them. we managed to stay in touch all through the yrs on and off to see how things were going in each others lives the last time i saw him was about 2 yrs ago at my brothers funeral we always kept this special spot in each others hearts for one another i dont know how to describe it like a family member but someone i had an intamate relationship with. i really think we could have very well been one of those stories where childhood sweethearts who stay together there whole lives. we just chose differnt ways to live thats all. i know though that he thought of me as often and the same way as i thought of him. on april 19 he was so strong on my mind and few days following i mean really strong and i didnt knw that he was gone yet i really believe it was him sending vibes or contactin me. it was the strangest thing i hadnt talked to him in 2 yrs and even though i thought of him often this was very very different.HE WAS WITH ME im sure of this. im waiting for him to come to me so we can talk. i miss him and until i saw his name here it didnt seem real i really still cant believe it. its gonna take time. im gonna be back to share more but for now i want to say without him this world seems less. he is in so many of my memories im very sad. i know he and i were meant to meet and spend the times together we had and im so very grateful for that. he had something very special and the ppl who really knew him know what im talking about. as we get older things change but some things never do and with him it was this ability to make you feel at ease to talk about anything on your mind. i wish he had more rest in his life as far back as i can remember he has always worked very hard and he never had any office job it was always hard laboour. when we were kids and everyone else was living at home he already had his own apartment car all those things. i know he was very proud of his boys and even though im not sure i would think he was a very good dad. thats one thing i promise lloyd is i want to leave window open for his boys if they want to hear any stories about there dad when he was young or anything i am able to do for them i would like to so if either one of them see this they have my email and i am goin to find out number to call your mom and i will leave all my info with her....
LLOYD I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU NOW I LOVE YOU THEN ,ALWAYS AND BEYOND. I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY AND SPENDING LONG WAITED TIME WITH YOUR MOTHER WHO I KNOW MISSED YOU AS MUCH AS YOU MISSED HER.
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